"Alone in this room"

" I am alone in this room as the 

world washes over me.

I sit and wait and wonder.

I have a terrible taste in my mouth

as I sit and wait in this room.

I can no longer see the walls.

everything has changed into something else.

I cannot joke about this,

I cannot explain this as

the world washes over me.

I don’t care if you believe me because

I’ve lost interest in that too.

I am in a place where I have never been before.

I am alone in a different place that

does not include other faces,

other human beings.

it is happening to me now

in a space within a space as

I sit and wait alone in this room. "

Charles Bukowski